This Blog is for You.

I started C25k AGAIN!

I am on my second week and man, have I missed running.

It it not yet fun. I am thinking it is going to be a few more weeks before I start to enjoy it even a little bit.

Before re-starting C25k this time, the last time I ran was August 23, 2014. That was a long time ago.  I ran a 5k race that day. It was rough. I felt overheated, exhausted and I thought I shouldn’t have been. Little did I know that I was pregnant with twins at the time.  But, alas that was a LONG time ago. I had a nice long pregnancy, a tough time with a lot of things after the birth of my boys… but it feels like my life is starting to find its own new normalcy now.

August 23, 2014 seems like ages ago. And to my body, which has gone through many changes, it definitely was. I had not worked out much at all the last 19 months save the random walk or workout video here or there.  I am back at square one. Well, minus square one because I am not massaging full-time like I used to, and that kept me in better shape than being a mommy seems to be.

I lost the majority of the muscle I had. My body changed from carrying twins in my belly for 9 months.  My body fat percentage is much higher.

In 2008 when I first started this long road to becoming a healthier person I was starting at what I thought was the beginning.  I started walking.  Then I found out about Couch to 5k. I started that program and loved the feeling that little bit of running gave me, but it was so hard. So hard. The beginning was the roughest. I didn’t know if I could make it through each workout. I felt so hopeless. I felt like a big slobby, sweaty, slow mess.

I wanted to write a blog to stay updated on life, and running and babies and all of the things in my life right now… but I also wanted to write this blog for YOU.

You. The one who has  just started a new workout regimen. The one who has only just thought about it. The one who has never worked out a day in your life.  You might be me, circa 2008.

I do have something now that I wish I had back in 2008.

I know I can do this.  Because I did it once before. And believe me, if I can do this, you certainly can! I really wish I could transplant this thought/feeling into your brain that you can.

It isn’t going to be fun at first. It’s going to suck sometimes. You’ll feel like giving up. But don’t! It will all be worth it in the end.  That feeling you get at the end of your workout (even if it is just relief that you finished)? THAT will be intensified by a bazillion times when you squat the most you ever have in your life. When you cross the finish line at your first 5k. The first time you hold a plank for 2 minutes. Keep on looking to those huge milestones and the next and the next and the next.

So, as I huff and puff doing my C25k runs I keep telling myself this: I can do this. It’s so going to be worth it.   I hope you’ll join with me on this tough, awesome journey. 🙂