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I ran my third 5k of the year today. My objective was just to finish as I had a tough time at my last 5k. I finished, but it was tough!

I kept having to give myself pep talks as I went along. I tried to think of every mantra that would keep me going. I didn’t stop, I didn’t quit. I refused to not fight.

With lupus, we do this every day. Whether you feel strong or not, you are strong. Stronger than you know. Stronger than the average healthy human. You’re still here. You’re still fighting.

Lupus sucks. It makes for hard days. But we don’t stop. We keep going. We are going to keep going until they find a cure.

I didn’t stop today. No matter how slow I was, I kept going. I kept telling myself I was STRONG. I FIGHT.

Feel proud, you are a fighter.


See What Happens.

As I have been dealing with this:



I am learning more about this:



Soooooo, I’m not exactly sure what is wrong, but I do know my cell phone is heavy enough to do some major damage to small appendages!

My toe is looking better the more I have been resting it though, so we shall see how it looks this week as to whether I will be continuing my c25k training!

Send me healing thoughts!

C25k Progress – Done with Week 3!

3-16-16 run


This was Week 4 Day 1 of C25k!  I’m taking the day off today as yesterday felt a little rough.  I have been going through the program a little faster than is suggested… but only because it has felt great so far!

(Don’t know what C25k is?  Check out this link here!)

I have been trying out new (to me) walking trails and paths around our area and have been discovering some really beautiful and fun places to run.  98% of my runs have been pushing the boys in the jogging stroller though. And let me tell you, it has made C25k a lot more difficult.  But I do feel like I am getting into better shape quicker than I would have otherwise.

I have already signed up for a 5k on April 23rd (right after the boys’ first birthday!) (omg!) and if I keep on track I should be running the race instead of doing walking/jogging intervals.  If I’m not that far along, I’m fine with that too… but my goal is to be running and not walking at that point.

And, since I won’t be pushing a jogging stroller, I should be supa fast, right? Ha!

I think I am finally far enough along in the C25k training program that I don’t feel slightly hopeless and totally out of shape. It still isn’t fun, per-say… but I am enjoying my runs more and more. And I am definitely enjoying the way I feel afterwards.  Running for me is definitely addicting.  <<<<One thing I thought I would never say.

If you would have asked me a month ago if I felt like getting back in shape within a couple months was possible I would have laughed in your silly face.  I was getting winded just taking the boys on walks.  I thought having lupus would slow my efforts down, but like I said in my last blog, I just keep telling myself I can do this, and that I can change my body and that I AM.

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This Blog is for You.

3-6 Run

I started C25k AGAIN!

I am on my second week and man, have I missed running.

It it not yet fun. I am thinking it is going to be a few more weeks before I start to enjoy it even a little bit.

Before re-starting C25k this time, the last time I ran was August 23, 2014. That was a long time ago.  I ran a 5k race that day. It was rough. I felt overheated, exhausted and I thought I shouldn’t have been. Little did I know that I was pregnant with twins at the time.  But, alas that was a LONG time ago. I had a nice long pregnancy, a tough time with a lot of things after the birth of my boys… but it feels like my life is starting to find its own new normalcy now.

August 23, 2014 seems like ages ago. And to my body, which has gone through many changes, it definitely was. I had not worked out much at all the last 19 months save the random walk or workout video here or there.  I am back at square one. Well, minus square one because I am not massaging full-time like I used to, and that kept me in better shape than being a mommy seems to be.

I lost the majority of the muscle I had. My body changed from carrying twins in my belly for 9 months.  My body fat percentage is much higher.

In 2008 when I first started this long road to becoming a healthier person I was starting at what I thought was the beginning.  I started walking.  Then I found out about Couch to 5k. I started that program and loved the feeling that little bit of running gave me, but it was so hard. So hard. The beginning was the roughest. I didn’t know if I could make it through each workout. I felt so hopeless. I felt like a big slobby, sweaty, slow mess.


I wanted to write a blog to stay updated on life, and running and babies and all of the things in my life right now… but I also wanted to write this blog for YOU.

You. The one who has  just started a new workout regimen. The one who has only just thought about it. The one who has never worked out a day in your life.  You might be me, circa 2008.

I do have something now that I wish I had back in 2008.

I know I can do this.  Because I did it once before. And believe me, if I can do this, you certainly can! I really wish I could transplant this thought/feeling into your brain that you can.

It isn’t going to be fun at first. It’s going to suck sometimes. You’ll feel like giving up. But don’t! It will all be worth it in the end.  That feeling you get at the end of your workout (even if it is just relief that you finished)? THAT will be intensified by a bazillion times when you squat the most you ever have in your life. When you cross the finish line at your first 5k. The first time you hold a plank for 2 minutes. Keep on looking to those huge milestones and the next and the next and the next.

So, as I huff and puff doing my C25k runs I keep telling myself this: I can do this. It’s so going to be worth it.   I hope you’ll join with me on this tough, awesome journey. 🙂

you can do this - defyinglupus

My Spring 2014 Workout Playlist

Like a Bullet Train!

Spring 2014 Workout Playlist

I’ve been trying to motivate myself lately to workout more. A huge way I do that is with great music to listen to.

I tell myself to get in at least 10 minutes… then I can quit if I want.  Normally by the time 10 minutes rolls by I am in the groove and enjoying the music so much I just don’t want to stop!

Here is my workout playlist for Spring!

What are you favorite songs to work out to? Please share!

Linking up!

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I am trying to find more blogs to read and link up with! Anything to do with what interests me (healthy living, lupus, running, autoimmune issues, ERF-ing, etc.) would be awesome!  

Leave me a link to YOUR blog and a few others that interest you!!


Hope you’re having a fantastic day!!